Kambing Sesat

Mbeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!

Will be returning to the theaters when it's done eating grass.

Red Head

Expressions

心理障碍

与妈在电话聊天，她说下个星期下来探望我...但是需要个伴，因为她但心可能会过境时会有问题...没有个伴会手忙脚乱。

妈： 找不到人陪我下来怎么办？

我： 没问题的...你不清楚还可以问问在机场的职务人员，他们会很乐意协助你。

妈： 这样应该没问题吧？只是问问下就可以了...

我： 对啊...妈，你其实可以的，什么事都做得到，就是心理障碍搞到你这个不敢那个不敢而已。

妈： 那好吧，如果找不到人陪我，我就一个人搭飞机下来吧。

我： 不用担心，你不会有问题的。

说真的，我也得反省下...口口声声告诉妈她的心理障碍阻止她做事，其实我自己也一样被我的障碍打败了无数次...还没鼓起勇气就败在自己的手下。以后要好好告诉自己，还没尝试就不会知道结果，我怎么输也好，就是绝对不可以输给自己。

Family

Hold me up, I want to know how's it like seeing things from your view!

I don't recall sitting on my dad's shoulders as a child. Perhaps my parents deemed it as dangerous... perhaps my parents were afraid that I would cry and thrash around when being put into an unfamiliar place... perhaps my parents just didn't do things like that.

Things change... people change... I wonder what has changed in my family. But one thing's for sure, like any other family, the love never stops.

It's just you and me...

In need of a break...

But there's no more Vodka left. =(

A lazy day...

A slow slow day...

End

Year 2007: MAE Club 26th Management Committee


Year 2008: MAE Club 27th Management Committee


2 years of ups and downs, running about, skipping classes, slavery... and it ended tonight. I'm officially relieved of all my tasks.

A part of me is relieved that I can finally concentrate on my priorities once again. Another part of me will definitely miss it. Funny how I always couldn't wait for this day to come, and when it arrives... I'm a little sad.

Regardless, this is a phase of life that I will have to bid farewell to. Time to move forward and focus on other more important things.

Time to let go...

A month that has been...

First and foremost, a happy belated birthday to Yi Wang and Shaun!

The birthday boys!!

Wishing you two a smooth year ahead and getting what both of you want. =D
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Speaking of birthdays, how can I miss out the other important birthday? Happy birthday Malaysia!!

The Lao Jiaos who gave us the best sketch performance we have ever seen, making their final Bang before leaving NTU.

Thanks Elaine and Sein Chyi for cheering me up that day.
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MAE Club Election has officially ended yesterday night after the vote recounting session. Here I would like to thank everyone who helped out and to the MAE Club 28th Management Committee, all the best!!

Now it's time to take a step forward...

10th August 2009

And I'm 22 years old... grown old, but not grown up.

Thanks guys!!

Very apt of them to get Tom and Jerry cakes for me. =P

It's my final year celebrating my birthday in NTU. If anything this is probably the last time so many people celebrated my birthday for me, because as we know, by August 2010, most of us here would be out of NTU, probably busy working. Everyone would have his or her own commitments.

I never wanted that night to end, I never wanted the next day to end as well... because that night and the next day are reminders of how many people loved me as a friend despite all the troubles I have brought them, despite all my flaws, despite what an ass I could be at times. For that, I couldn't thank you enough.

It's probably very silly of me to ask for all of us to stay close because let's face it, in the future we will have our own commitments, we will have our other halves, we will have other more important people in our lives if we haven't already have them now... so all I will ask for is this: for us to come out together from time to time and meet up and for us to always keep in touch.

As for me? I will cherish that picture above... because for all I know, it might just be the last one we all take a photo like that.

Farewell

I'll freely admit: This holiday hasn't been a happy one.

Face hidden to avoid potentially traumatizing graphic

And it was a tough period to go through as well.

I was lost, I was scared, I was lonely. I didn't expect it to be so fast... probably because I wasn't there most of the time to witness it.

I am not the most expressive person, nor am I talkative, in hindsight perhaps I should be.

I want him to watch me graduate, I want him to watch me setting up my own family, I want him to grow old with mum, I want to sit with him and laugh about how much of a nuisance I was when I was a baby, I want him to watch both his boys succeed in life and know that we couldn't ask for a better father.

Alas, the final moment came as swiftly as it went.

I will remember all the promises I've made to you, I will treasure every little thing you've done for me, I will remember what you've said to me and I will always be proud of you.

Goodbye my one and only father.

Am I...

heartless?

Or am I heartless?

A night of...

Annalakshmi, jumping about and walking on stones in Chinatown.

Kicked off the night by having dinner in Annalakshmi.


Good news is that on weekday nights they serve ala carte instead of buffet. Their ala carte are way better than their buffet. Oh and their menu is much much better this time, considering they have added explanations on what the dishes are instead of just the name of the dishes. Likewise the staffs are more than helpful in explaining how the dishes are supposed to be mixed while throwing in recommendations.

The dinner in full view.

A small walk in Chinatown food street while snapping some pictures here and there.
Should I reach for the lantern or should I go for the moonlight?

Last but not least, jumping and monkeying around on the overhead bridge!
Totally oblivious to the quizzical stares and amused glances.

An extremely tired night but had a whole loads of fun... awesome night!!

The past week...

consists of endless report writing, my first ever Singapore flyer experience, going to Clarke Quay and Mount Faber while working, lots of geek talk over one dinner and my first time lurking in 4 malls in the same day.

For the sanity of those who may or may not stumble upon this blog, I shall omit the report writing part.

Singapore flyer experience:
It was Suk Kwan's birthday. And I had absolutely no reason to miss the celebration because once upon a time she had took the pain(and lots of effort) to tell me when her birthday is.

Pink Wan was the main organizer for the celebration and she suggested Singapore flyer, something different from the usual "dinner & birthday cake" celebration combo(and the fact that the Singapore flyer is having student rate promotion in lieu of their 1st anniversary helped too).

The result:
Night view of Marina Bay. Wish that you're here to see it.

The night view was awesome. Just too bad that 40 minutes was too short. We couldn't get enough of it. Definitely worth the 10 dollars(and maybe a teeny-weeny bit more, but not the usual rate of 30 plus dollars).

Clarke Quay & Mount Faber:
It was a good getaway from the everyday office life(then again I've gone to Cathay Cineleisure and Science Centre during work so I guess it wasn't THAT bad). Oh and it's free and easy too since it's more like an education trip than actual work. It felt like a mobile lecture session, which I miss a little since I didn't have any after I began my internship.

There was one thing that caught my attention though: when we were in Mount Faber, I saw a Johor car passed by us. As we were leaving Mount Faber, I saw that same car parked in the middle of the road and the couple inside were making out. Driving all the way from Johor to Mount Faber to make out... on a weekday morning, looks like they really have plenty of time to spare.

On Friday night I was in my cousin's place for steamboat dinner. And I didn't realize how cute my nephew(because I have no better word and it would be weird to refer to him as my cousin's son) is until my cousin told us about his little phone conversations.

About 1 or 2 weeks ago, my nephew picked up a phone call. It was his first time picking up a phone call so naturally he didn't know what to do. He didn't get any information about the caller(might not have spoken anything too, to the dismay of the caller) so my cousin asked whether the caller was a boy or a girl. To her amusement, my nephew didn't know that too, so she left it at that.

So the second time my nephew picked up a phone call, his immediately asked "Are you a boy or a girl?"

4 shopping malls and a pair of dead feet:
Was in Tampines to try out Manpuku. Manpuku is a Japanese village restaurant and like Shokudo in Raffles City, they give you a card like this:
and then you go around and purchase food using this card. Only when you decide to leave the place then you'll pay the cash.

Tried Moonlight Oku(basically Japanese style pancake), the taste reminded me of takoyaki - a little bit sourish and a small hint of sweetness. After that moved on to Butter Miso Corn Ramen... DON'T ever order that. Just don't.

We then proceeded to try their cakes and parfaits. For the cakes, four words: Too much whip cream. For parfait we picked Matcha Parfait, which in my opinion was nice. Love the green tea flavoured ice cream.

Tried Teadot after about 3 hours of shopping. They serve a wide variety of teas, from the standard ones to the quirky ones. Their staffs were kind enough to throw in recommendations too when we were pondering over which tea to pick. I had Royal Earl Grey Tea, might have been my limited taste bud but it tasted awfully like our beloved Teh Tarik. Might have something to do with the caramel that they've added in.

After that we proceeded to Vivo City and they were having Nissan exhibition there. Halfway through the exhibition they even invited people to perform dance. But any performance pales in comparison to this:
The latest addition in the Nissan Fairlady Series - 370Z!!

Everyone was vying for the chance to sit in the car. When I finally got to sit in the car, I was sitting beside a stranger and suddenly things became awkward. Both of us knew very well that we're just going to be in the car for less than 5 minutes, both of us knew that we were just in there to experience how sitting in the car felt like. And yet the universal law of awkwardness dictates that we should feel awkward sharing a tight space with a stranger even though it's only for less than 5 minutes. Maybe I just don't like sharing space with people whom I don't know.

Finally we went to Chinatown for dinner and dessert before we called it a day.

My limbs became lifeless the moment I reached my room and it remained that way until Monday.

There's no...

such thing as a good timing for telling bad news.

The only difference is whether you are given hints before receiving the bad news.

More often than not, the bomb is dropped on you and you're left clueless and shocked beyond words. At this point, you either let tears take over and cry it all out or you are so angry that you just had to get away before you lose it.

In the end, you'll realize that while you're part of it, it's not about you. Suddenly your feelings do not matter as much anymore... sure, you may get emotional or cry from time to time, but it's no longer about you.

People say...

that you won't know that something is precious to you until it's lost.

That the pain is unbearable when you lose that precious something.

But the pain is already unbearable now.

Stop

Stop over think things.

Stop giving excuses.

Stop procrastinating.

Stop perpetuating those useless negative thoughts.

Stop fearing.

Just stop...

Because it's absolutely important that I stay positive now. It's time to find the best of myself, accept it, and become better.

Because I realize nothing is permanent, nor will the people around me be around forever. I couldn't appreciate this fact back then, probably still haven't fully appreciate it now, but the weight of the words are starting to have an effect on me.

For all I know, this might even be my last chance.

7 days at a glance

Day 49, 7th April:
Night time is the time I do my laundry...


Day 50, 8th April:
A little greeting from this insect harboring itself at my vanity shelf. I used the word vanity for lack of better word. =P


Day 51, 9th April:
The night before me departing back to Kuala Lumpur. Had a small birthday celebration for Wai Seng, and this was our dessert - Yogurts of some flavours that I have absolutely no clue about + fruit loops + honey stars + some chocolate cereal. Tastes strange... in a good way. =P


Day 52, 10th April:
Spent the WHOLE day just to get back to KL from Singapore. I absolutely didn't expect that there would be so many people going back through Larkin. Arrived at Kranji station at 9am, I was quite confident that I would reach Larkin at around 10am and be at home at about 2pm. Oh how wrong I was... the queue was unbelievably long... so long that the queue could cover the perimeter of the MRT station. Nevermind, I should reach Larkin at about 10.30am the latest.

I was wrong again. The frequency of the bus was so horribly low that I spent a good 45 minutes stuck in the line before I actually boarded the bus. Still, it's just 9.45am, I should still be able to make it to Larkin before 11am.

Little did I know that's just the beginning of the agonizing long wait that I would have to endure just so I could start my journey back to KL from Larkin. What followed was an excruciatingly long wait at Singapore custom just to board the bus, and then got stuck in a traffic jam at the Causeway bridge. By the time I reached the brand new Johor Bahru custom, it was already 12pm! So much for reaching Larkin at 11am. Now I was praying hard that I could at least reach home before the sun set.

JB custom was flooded with people anxious to go to Malaysia - another half an hour burned. At this point, any hope of reaching home before the sun set was virtually destroyed. Nevermind, I wasn't going to turn back at this point now that I've come this far. I reached Larkin at 1pm, had my lunch and boarded the 1.30pm bus. In the end I reached Pudu Raya at 6.30pm. That was how I spent my Friday, all because I've decided to go back last minute. No more last minute rash decision of going back like this... ever!! That said, I must thank my traveling partner who endured the 2 hours painful long wait between Singapore custom and JB custom with me. Thanks, even though you're not reading my blog.

Went to Sunway Pyramid for dinner and they were having figure skating competition. I repeat: TELEPHOTO LENS BADLY NEEDED =(.

While I was at home, I realised that my beloved A350 somewhat kaput-ed. =(

So no camera for me until it is repaired. =((

And no photos for 11th and 12th April. But to make it up... I'll post more photos for 10th April. =P

So what was I doing in Pyramid?
Dinner in Sushi Zanmai!! Spider Temaki hohohohohohohohoho....

I can't get enough of Inari Tuna. Give me Inari Tuna anytime!! Yeah I have a sort of weird taste to like this kind of sushi. =P

Dragon Row and some sushi set that was under promotion. Don't remember the name. Nothing spectacular... edible... can pass...

Capped off the night with playing wireless flash in my room.

Saturday was spent playing with wireless flash as well but the pictures are not with me. I think I'm starting to get addicted to wireless flash. =S

Came back to Singapore on Sunday. A very tiring weekend. And stupid me for not bringing back earphones...

Day 55, 13th April:
Exam nights in NTU. Studious students stroll back after a day of struggling with studies. Taken using my phone. And it's going to be this way until I get back my A350.

Phew... long entry.

Good luck to the exam takers. =P

Obviously Awesome's Sufficient In Showing...

just how breathtaking the concert was, or was it?

Awesome... couldn't even begin to describe it. The elation I felt throughout the concert was so immense that it overwhelmed me... words were beyond me then. Although at the end of the concert, my hearing was compromised for a while(my brother's words came into mind: Why pay so much to inflict permanent minor ear damage on yourself?), my legs were so worn out that I would've crumbled if anyone so much as nudged my knees a little, my throat was burning, my wallet had a big hole in it, I was in cloud nine. And I believed that everyone who was at the concert would have felt the same. Evidence of Don't-Look-Back-In-Anger-Hangover® was apparent as I heard people still singing it out loud even long after the concert had ended.

Without further ado... pictures!! Taken using Jacqueline's camera. =)
Liam and Noel Gallagher - the lead singer and the lead guitarist. The crowd went nuts when Oasis came up the stage.


Gem Archer and Andy Bell - the rhythm guitarist and the bassist. The drummer Chris Sharrock took the stage later.

In the beginning, they were playing mostly songs from their new album - The Shock Of Lightning. The crowd wasn't that familiar with their newer songs so it took a while for us to warm up.

And then they played Wonderwall. Everything was set loose as the familiar tune kicked in. The very scene of the whole stadium singing as a whole along with Liam sent shivers down my spine. To watch it in video is one thing, to be there experiencing it is another whole new level. From time to time as they played the familiar tunes - Morning Glory, Lyla, The Importance of Being Idle... the crowd serenaded along. But none could compare to Wonderwall... until Liam left the stage and Noel took over the stage as lead singer, and sang:
Don't Look Back In Anger!! In Jacqueline's words: The crowd went ballistic!! Everyone sang at the top of their very own voices. Noel could just stop singing and we would not miss the beat at all, and he actually stopped at the end and let the crowd take over the final few lines before he sang them!!


We managed to find time to camwhore a bit in between too. =P


They ended their gig with I Am The Walrus... Liam walked over to our side and stood there after he finished singing while letting Chris work the crowd with his highly energetic drumworks. Chris' final climatic drumworks marked the end of the concert, leaving the crowd wanting more.

Bloody awesome concert!! And that's an understatement.

Before I conclude this entry, here's the accoustic version of Don't Look Back In Anger, wonderfully done by Noel:

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Day 47, 5th April:
Someone felt compelled to cover Liam's crotch area while I was taking the photo.

Day 48, 6th April:
Aftermath of Oasis concert - my bleeding wallet and having to resort to instant noodles for meals. =P

Oasis

Can't wait!!! =D
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Day 46, 4th April:
A youth percussion band - Strikeforce performing for Easter Celebration. It's a whole load of fun watching them perform, the fact that the music they play had a distinctive samba feel to it made it all the more playful and cheeky. Suk Kwan told me that they've performed in last year's NDP, which I happened to watch. Too bad I won't get to watch them perform in NDP this year.

Lame

De Zien - says:
*u sound like u have something to say to me

Anthony says:
*nope
*i dun:P

De Zien - says:
*lame

Anthony says:
*well
*i learn from the master

De Zien - says:
*X doesn't lame ppl that way

Anthony says:
*no, he doesnt

De Zien - says:
*indeed
*so saying that u learn from the master is evidently inaccurate
*because the master doesn't do it that way

Anthony says:
*well
*the master i learnt from isnt X

De Zien - says:
*then?
*no Y doesn't do that either

Anthony says:
*he does it better than either of them

De Zien - says:
*oooh?
*then i must shake his hand
*and salute to him
*pray tell
*who is this lame meister

Anthony says:
*he is not easily seen
*you need special tooks
*tools

De Zien - says:
*like?

Anthony says:
*a mirror

De Zien - says:
*gosh it IS very hard
*how am i supposed to shake his hand and salute to him WHILE i'm holding the mirror?

Anthony says:
*he's doesn't do handshakes

De Zien - says:
*he doesn't?
*what a haughty fellow
*i dun wanna see him liao
*hmmpf

Anthony says:
*lol
*enough laaaaaaaaaaaaa
**faint*


Some names have been changed to preserve their identity and subsequently, their reputation. I know mine has been ruined long long time ago. =P
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Day 45, 3rd April:
A small little gift... and I gobbled up most of them in the short span of 10 minutes. Now the only things left are a packet of instant noodle, a packet of milo 3-in-1 and a packet of coffee powder. Thanks for the gift!

April's Fool...

passed by uneventfully.

The rain complemented this gloomy period...
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Day 43, 1st April:
It was raining... but the mood couldn't have been better for some Jazz tunes (yes it's slowly turning into an addiction now). Shame that the room itself didn't have the atmosphere that matched the Jazz tunes so I have to settle with this photo instead. It was taken after the rain stopped, droplets freshly deposited on the leaves, the only evidence left of the rain.


Day 44, 2nd April:
I was emo-ing and wanted to slit my wrist but was too stupid to realize I WASN'T slitting my wrist... Got cut while I was frantically keeping my laundry right before the rain got heavy. I think the only way I won't get such silly injuries is to not move at all for the rest of my life. Ouch!!

A few...

observations I have made:
1) Mosquitoes love me a lot
2) The girls who catch my attention on MRT usually alight at Clementi
3) The older a woman is, the more likely is the woman to wear translucent clothing with spaghetti straps
4) I love jazz genre songs, especially those sang by amorously soothing voices. (Youtube Stacey Kent - So Nice if you want to know what I mean)

Brace for a very long one here...
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Day 33, 22nd March:
Fooling around in Patrick's room and ended up being a model for his wireless flash experiment. Credits to Patrick for this nicely taken photo.


Day 34, 23rd March:
A gun!! Nah, it's just a ray gun that is used to measure the temperature of a spot that you can't reach. This is one of the instruments that we used for our project at work. (Yeah, we were that bored at work that we took pictures of our instruments.)


Day 35, 24th March:
The overexposed fish cake. Had lunch at Race Course Road and saw this fish cake at the stall, which smells really really scrumptiously nice. Bought one and ate it... oily to the very core but who cares? It's nice!!


Day 36, 25th March:
MAE Exam Welfare package. Needless to say that's when we would take as many goodie bags as possible from the leftovers. This time we have quite a few nice and handy items in our bags. =D


Day 37, 26th March:
A new member in our arsenal of instrument for our project. Lux-meter they call it, and it's used to measure the light intensity of wherever you are. Not so fun though if you're outdoor and the sun intensity is rising and falling like a wave.


Day 38, 27th March:
Note the time in the picture. Rubbing it in while I still can. Pretty self-explanatory. Anthony probably wanted to strangle me at that point, and possibly at many other moments too throughout this semester. =P


Day 39, 28th March:
Earth Hour! And we were at Jurong Point hanging out. A queer little programming error resulted in the line shown at the display above. Nonetheless it amused the mechatronics geeks who were present. =P


Day 40, 29th March:
Ate a few pieces of Royce chocolate which Patrick helped me to buy while he was in Suntec. Very very good, probably one of the best chocolates I've ever tasted. But I'm having sore throat now. =(


Day 41, 30th March:
More drawings to look at and get confused. Still not as bad as the previous ones I had so I guess I shouldn't be complaining.


Day 42, 31st March:
Which brings me to this... currently chugging down the pastiles and the lozenges to soothe my throat. And I'm still spitting blood.


And tomorrow is April's Fool Day. Happy April's Fool Day?